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10.01
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Rabu, 14 Mei 2014
You
I'm a common human being, just that kind of girl
I'm not good at words
I'm not good at writing
I'm an average
I'm not good at showing my emotions
I talk too much
And sometimes I talk less
I can't play instruments
I can't dance
I'm boyish. I'm both masculine and feminine in one body they said
I'm not that beauty
I lack of many things
But you,
You are the person I adored since the first time I know you in junior high school
And we went to the same highschool
I adored you more in highschool. You are one out of some amazing friends I had
And we went to the same college, yes
You are poetic
You are genius
You are their type of boyfriend
You are both bad boy and good boy
You are handsome. Don't argue, that's the fact
You are a great man
I know that I'm not your type
You know my stories well, I told you all about that
You know my love stories too. You know very well about me that can't move on back then. You also know about the other guy
I know yours too. I know your this and that you've told me
You told me about your love stories too. About your past. About you growing your hair because someone liked it.
That's why, that's why I don't really give a damn think too much about us. You are my friend, very very best friend and will always be
We went out together. And I always thought that it was just another bestfriendship-thingie
We went out, a lot
We talk, a lot
And I feel another things
But I was like: No. It's not like that it's not like that back to your sense pleaseee
Yes, a denial.
And you confessed something. It was like a thunder for me
I never thought that you have another thoughts
I could never ever imagine such man like you confessed your feelings to someone like me
I have no idea
I have no idea
I have no idea
I liked you too
But you know me well about what's stuck inside my brain
You know me well since I told you my stories:
I won't believe in love
I'm tired of being in love
I'm afraid to be in another relationship since October, since February
You know it
I told you to reconsider it eventho I also told you that I liked you
You told me this and that. You looked really honest
Your eyes, your words, your trembling voice, your trembling lips, your every moves
And I want some time to think
Because I won't it to be another instant crush
And I just want to ask
Why?
I'm not your type. I lack of many things.
But why? Why such a great man like you confess your love to me, the lacking immature girl?
I feel like I'm dreaming
Yes, dreaming.
JJ |
21.34
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Senin, 05 Mei 2014
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15.52
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Minggu, 16 Maret 2014
A Music Nostalgia
Kali ini gue mau curhat tentang musik. Yep.
Karena seperti biasa, gue dan Aghnia nongkrong di
IndieCology sembari belajar dan mengerjakan tugas. (Ya, kedokteran dan teknik
bersatu untuk belajar bersama, nggak make sense juga sih sebenernya). Dan Indie
ini menjadi tempat favorit kita, kita juga udah punya meja sakral sendiri: di
indie-middle, disamping jendela. Kalopun meja itu dipake orang, kata Nia masih
ada meja yang bisa mengawasi (gue sebenernya juga ga paham her kind of
mengawasi itu yang kaya gimana), dan tetap di middle. Pokoknya tempat sakral
kita itu di middle, deket bar nya Indie.
Okay. Back to the topic.
Biasanya kita kalo kesini dari sore, daan seperti biasa.
Jam-jam siang-sore itu pasti lagunya galau. Apalagi Raisa. Tapi kalo udah
menjelang maghrib gitu, itu pas banget prime time nya playlist mbak-mbak sama
mas-mas Indie: Ada muse, Linkin Park, yang Alternative-Rock gitu, dan juga
Adelle (well, at least galau tipe Adelle lebih mending daripada Raisa). Dan..
Suasana di Indie Middle ini bak booth karaoke banget. Gue sama Nia juga sering
nyanyi ngikutin lagu-lagu di Indie tanpa peduli makhluk-makhluk di sekitar.
Mungkin ini kali ya yang bikin kita ketagihan kesini. Hoho.
Nah, kemaren, diputerlah lagu-lagu lama. Gue sama Nia jadi
semacam nostalgia. Ngomongin lagu-lagu jaman dulu 2000an, jaman MTV, dan gimana
band-band sekarang tuh albumnya ga sebagus album mereka yang dulu-dulu. Dan
ngomongin musik emang gapernah abis sama ini bocah. We have the same taste.
Dari mulai ngomongin gue jadi suka lagunya The Cure, lalu
kita nyanyi bagian “Show me, Show me, Show me” nya, trus tiba-tiba nyambung
nyanyiin Ramones. Trus abis itu ngomongin Album-album kompilasi jaman dulu,
ngomongin Linkin Park jaman dulu, ngomongin kalo dulu lagunya Fort Minor itu
bagus buanget. Ngomongin Paramore yang bagusnya cuma album 1-2 doang, ngebahas
kalo dulu ada Evanescene, trus ngebahas MTV awards, ngomong 30 Seconds To Mars
dan album pertama-kedua nya yang bagus dan album ketiganya yang bagus banget,
nyanyiin lagunya Queen yang Bohemian Rhapsody dan dimantepin pas bagian Bismillah.
Ngomongin Foo Fighters, dan Dave Grohl tentunya, dan Nirvana sambil niruin
bagian “Yeah” nya doang di Smells Like A Teen Spirits. Dan Incubus dengan vokalisnya yang ganteng dan
suaranya yang oh my lord bikin deg-deg-an. Intinya ngomongin lagu-lagu jaman
dulu dan jaman childhood kita. Kesimpulannya adalah: MUSIC WAS TOTALLY WAY MORE
AWESOME BACK THEN.
Bahkan dulu jaman-jaman Chris Brown baru banget (jaman masih
pake baggy pants and baggy shirt yang keren pada jamannya), jamannya Ne-Yo,
Usher, itu aja keren banget. Ga cuma Alternative ato Rock doang yang totally
awesome, musik-musik begitu dulu juga keren sekali. Dulu jaman Justin
Timberlake dengan Sexy Back dan My Love nya, Hoobastank, M2M trus Marion Raven
keluar dan ngeluarin album solo, nah TATU juga ada, dan maaaasih banyak lagi.
And music nowadays were full of EDM. I’m not saying that I
don’t like EDM at all. I like David Guetta, tapi cuma sampe album Nothing But
The Beat. I like Zedd, Calvin Harris, Hardwell, Armin Van Buuren, Paul Van Dyk,
Gesaffelstein, sama Swedish House Mafia. Menurut gue sih yang bagus itu doang.
Kalo DJ lain kadang tunes nya too much, bikin sakit telinga. Tapi ini no
offense loh ya, Cuma pendapat gue pribadi aja sih.
I’m not saying that music nowadays are bad. No. They’re just
good, but not as good as back then. Cuma musik sekarang kebanyakan ga remains
in our mind, our heart. Jadi denger beberapa kali, bosen, yaudah.
Mungkin karena jaman udah beda kali ya. Tapi emang beda
baget sih. Ato mungkin karena gue ini nostalgia jadi perasaannya beda. Tapi
intinya good music remains. Mau itu lama atau baru (walaupun kebanyakan yang
lama-lama :p). Dan setiap orang punya taste masing-masing. J
Tapi gue juga ga kuno-kuno amat lah. Gue masih tau lagu-lagu
sekarang yang baru baru itu. Gue juga suka. Sebut deh siapa, Pitbull, Jay Z,
Fun, One Republic, Lorde, Eminem, dan lain-lain (gamungkin disebutin semua kan?
Banyak banget). Cuma, mungkin belom se remain lagu-lagu dulu di dalem hati. :p
And thanks I had my childhood life full of MTV and Guitar
Hero. J
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21.33
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Rabu, 12 Maret 2014
Hello. After a long time hiatus. :)
It’s been a really really looong time since I write my very
last post huh. It’s over 2 years ago, maybe.
And here I am now, I’m in my sophomore year in my university
life. Yes, and yet I haven’t reach the only thing that i want: a good GPA.
Excuse me, it’s not that I’m not studying or anything, I just sometimes am not
good in answering the whole questions L
But screw that! I still have this 4th semester, and the next semester, and up 4-5 semester to fix my GPA. #PrayForAnis. Keep on fighting, you have to be
better-er.
Okay. Now I want to talk about what exactly my uni-life’s
going right now. Yes, I never write any of that in this blog (well, I’m too
lazy to write right now, it’s different from when I was a highschooler).
I study those civil engineeringf stuffs at Civil Engineering
and Environmental Department, Gadjah Mada University, right now. The very first
time I entered the building to attend the lectures, I was like: Oh, okay. It’s
my life right now, you have to deal with those numbers, formulas, blablabla.
And yes, I was really not into the environment there. I mean.. I didn’t really
socialize at that environment. I did the tasks, I met assistant, I met my
group, I attended lectures, then I went home or I met my boyfriend at that
time. There you go, you may say that I’m a Mahasiswa Kupu-Kupu (Kuliah-pulang
Kuliah-Pulang). At that time, I thought that I had enough life: Lectures, some
friend, and my-that-time-boyfriend. That’s all.
But things changed after the first semester. At the second
semester I joined events. And yes It changes my perpective. I met my dearest
friend, and become closer and moore closer. Her name is Aca. And of course I
began to know ‘em. I began to enjoy my every moments with them. I met crazy
fellas. I met seniors, I began to know my seniors whom I didn’t wanna know at
all before. Then I started thinking:
OKAY I’M IN LOVE IN THIS ENVIRONMENT,
WHERE HAVE YOU BEEN THIS WHOLE TIME YOU SHITHEAD? And I realized that I really
need another life, and this environment brought me what I really need. They
trusted me. And yes, I love em all. And I enjoyed every single time to be
there. I let my crazy side went crazier with them, with my friends at class.
And we laughed together. Talked shit and trashy things together.
Days passed, I met another guy. And yes, he opened my new
perspective. Eventhough now we’re not together just like how we used to back
then but what he said to me always remains: “You need to explore yourself.
Socialize more. You’re not that stupid to let your uni life goes flat.”
And yes of course. The 3rd semester goes really well in
social life –except my love life. I know this environment more than before. I
know more friends. And that time, I was so damn happy having times with that
fellas (but I’m not really happy in one thing: love life. Excuse :p). I really
enjoyed their happines. And up until now,
I love to capture their moments. To see their happines is a kind of huge
happines to me. Looking at their laugh and scream by viewfinder always fascinated
me.
So, what’s the point?
It’s enough, I had my first semester doing nothing and that’s
awful. And now I feel more loose, more human. Happier, of course. And I won’t
let any single minutes of this awesome life wasted.
And I thought that,
Don’t let any single thing hold you to explore yourself. You
can’t reverse the time. Enjoy every single moments that you have. Fall in love
with the moments. And don’t let yourself to be bounded. Break the limits. Know
more people, more and more and more each day. Socialize, because you will meet
a lot of people in the future and maybe they will help you in the future. And
always be good. And laugh more, you need to let your crazy side out of yourself
sometimes, it’s really okay to be nuts. Don’t let anyone distract you or forbid
what you wanna do. Just.. be happy, do what you love more and be good to
another people. Don’t overthink about what another might think. Just.. be good. J
And.. talking about their pictures.. Here are some photos that I took. :p THIS IS CIVILION! THIS IS CIVILION!
(God, I miss those moments. I miss their flaming euphoria! I want to capture agaaaain pleaase!)
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06.24
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Jumat, 03 Agustus 2012
monochrome
" Period recreation is very difficult unless you make a black-and-white movie."
currently in love with black and white.
it speaks its beauty in different way, you know? It's epic.
here is some picture from my high-school's promnite.
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10.01
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Rabu, 14 Mei 2014
You
I'm a common human being, just that kind of girl
I'm not good at words
I'm not good at writing
I'm an average
I'm not good at showing my emotions
I talk too much
And sometimes I talk less
I can't play instruments
I can't dance
I'm boyish. I'm both masculine and feminine in one body they said
I'm not that beauty
I lack of many things
But you,
You are the person I adored since the first time I know you in junior high school
And we went to the same highschool
I adored you more in highschool. You are one out of some amazing friends I had
And we went to the same college, yes
You are poetic
You are genius
You are their type of boyfriend
You are both bad boy and good boy
You are handsome. Don't argue, that's the fact
You are a great man
I know that I'm not your type
You know my stories well, I told you all about that
You know my love stories too. You know very well about me that can't move on back then. You also know about the other guy
I know yours too. I know your this and that you've told me
You told me about your love stories too. About your past. About you growing your hair because someone liked it.
That's why, that's why I don't really give a damn think too much about us. You are my friend, very very best friend and will always be
We went out together. And I always thought that it was just another bestfriendship-thingie
We went out, a lot
We talk, a lot
And I feel another things
But I was like: No. It's not like that it's not like that back to your sense pleaseee
Yes, a denial.
And you confessed something. It was like a thunder for me
I never thought that you have another thoughts
I could never ever imagine such man like you confessed your feelings to someone like me
I have no idea
I have no idea
I have no idea
I liked you too
But you know me well about what's stuck inside my brain
You know me well since I told you my stories:
I won't believe in love
I'm tired of being in love
I'm afraid to be in another relationship since October, since February
You know it
I told you to reconsider it eventho I also told you that I liked you
You told me this and that. You looked really honest
Your eyes, your words, your trembling voice, your trembling lips, your every moves
And I want some time to think
Because I won't it to be another instant crush
And I just want to ask
Why?
I'm not your type. I lack of many things.
But why? Why such a great man like you confess your love to me, the lacking immature girl?
I feel like I'm dreaming
Yes, dreaming.
JJ |
21.34
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Senin, 05 Mei 2014
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15.52
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Minggu, 16 Maret 2014
A Music Nostalgia
Kali ini gue mau curhat tentang musik. Yep.
Karena seperti biasa, gue dan Aghnia nongkrong di
IndieCology sembari belajar dan mengerjakan tugas. (Ya, kedokteran dan teknik
bersatu untuk belajar bersama, nggak make sense juga sih sebenernya). Dan Indie
ini menjadi tempat favorit kita, kita juga udah punya meja sakral sendiri: di
indie-middle, disamping jendela. Kalopun meja itu dipake orang, kata Nia masih
ada meja yang bisa mengawasi (gue sebenernya juga ga paham her kind of
mengawasi itu yang kaya gimana), dan tetap di middle. Pokoknya tempat sakral
kita itu di middle, deket bar nya Indie.
Okay. Back to the topic.
Biasanya kita kalo kesini dari sore, daan seperti biasa.
Jam-jam siang-sore itu pasti lagunya galau. Apalagi Raisa. Tapi kalo udah
menjelang maghrib gitu, itu pas banget prime time nya playlist mbak-mbak sama
mas-mas Indie: Ada muse, Linkin Park, yang Alternative-Rock gitu, dan juga
Adelle (well, at least galau tipe Adelle lebih mending daripada Raisa). Dan..
Suasana di Indie Middle ini bak booth karaoke banget. Gue sama Nia juga sering
nyanyi ngikutin lagu-lagu di Indie tanpa peduli makhluk-makhluk di sekitar.
Mungkin ini kali ya yang bikin kita ketagihan kesini. Hoho.
Nah, kemaren, diputerlah lagu-lagu lama. Gue sama Nia jadi
semacam nostalgia. Ngomongin lagu-lagu jaman dulu 2000an, jaman MTV, dan gimana
band-band sekarang tuh albumnya ga sebagus album mereka yang dulu-dulu. Dan
ngomongin musik emang gapernah abis sama ini bocah. We have the same taste.
Dari mulai ngomongin gue jadi suka lagunya The Cure, lalu
kita nyanyi bagian “Show me, Show me, Show me” nya, trus tiba-tiba nyambung
nyanyiin Ramones. Trus abis itu ngomongin Album-album kompilasi jaman dulu,
ngomongin Linkin Park jaman dulu, ngomongin kalo dulu lagunya Fort Minor itu
bagus buanget. Ngomongin Paramore yang bagusnya cuma album 1-2 doang, ngebahas
kalo dulu ada Evanescene, trus ngebahas MTV awards, ngomong 30 Seconds To Mars
dan album pertama-kedua nya yang bagus dan album ketiganya yang bagus banget,
nyanyiin lagunya Queen yang Bohemian Rhapsody dan dimantepin pas bagian Bismillah.
Ngomongin Foo Fighters, dan Dave Grohl tentunya, dan Nirvana sambil niruin
bagian “Yeah” nya doang di Smells Like A Teen Spirits. Dan Incubus dengan vokalisnya yang ganteng dan
suaranya yang oh my lord bikin deg-deg-an. Intinya ngomongin lagu-lagu jaman
dulu dan jaman childhood kita. Kesimpulannya adalah: MUSIC WAS TOTALLY WAY MORE
AWESOME BACK THEN.
Bahkan dulu jaman-jaman Chris Brown baru banget (jaman masih
pake baggy pants and baggy shirt yang keren pada jamannya), jamannya Ne-Yo,
Usher, itu aja keren banget. Ga cuma Alternative ato Rock doang yang totally
awesome, musik-musik begitu dulu juga keren sekali. Dulu jaman Justin
Timberlake dengan Sexy Back dan My Love nya, Hoobastank, M2M trus Marion Raven
keluar dan ngeluarin album solo, nah TATU juga ada, dan maaaasih banyak lagi.
And music nowadays were full of EDM. I’m not saying that I
don’t like EDM at all. I like David Guetta, tapi cuma sampe album Nothing But
The Beat. I like Zedd, Calvin Harris, Hardwell, Armin Van Buuren, Paul Van Dyk,
Gesaffelstein, sama Swedish House Mafia. Menurut gue sih yang bagus itu doang.
Kalo DJ lain kadang tunes nya too much, bikin sakit telinga. Tapi ini no
offense loh ya, Cuma pendapat gue pribadi aja sih.
I’m not saying that music nowadays are bad. No. They’re just
good, but not as good as back then. Cuma musik sekarang kebanyakan ga remains
in our mind, our heart. Jadi denger beberapa kali, bosen, yaudah.
Mungkin karena jaman udah beda kali ya. Tapi emang beda
baget sih. Ato mungkin karena gue ini nostalgia jadi perasaannya beda. Tapi
intinya good music remains. Mau itu lama atau baru (walaupun kebanyakan yang
lama-lama :p). Dan setiap orang punya taste masing-masing. J
Tapi gue juga ga kuno-kuno amat lah. Gue masih tau lagu-lagu
sekarang yang baru baru itu. Gue juga suka. Sebut deh siapa, Pitbull, Jay Z,
Fun, One Republic, Lorde, Eminem, dan lain-lain (gamungkin disebutin semua kan?
Banyak banget). Cuma, mungkin belom se remain lagu-lagu dulu di dalem hati. :p
And thanks I had my childhood life full of MTV and Guitar
Hero. J
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21.33
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Rabu, 12 Maret 2014
Hello. After a long time hiatus. :)
It’s been a really really looong time since I write my very
last post huh. It’s over 2 years ago, maybe.
And here I am now, I’m in my sophomore year in my university
life. Yes, and yet I haven’t reach the only thing that i want: a good GPA.
Excuse me, it’s not that I’m not studying or anything, I just sometimes am not
good in answering the whole questions L
But screw that! I still have this 4th semester, and the next semester, and up 4-5 semester to fix my GPA. #PrayForAnis. Keep on fighting, you have to be
better-er.
Okay. Now I want to talk about what exactly my uni-life’s
going right now. Yes, I never write any of that in this blog (well, I’m too
lazy to write right now, it’s different from when I was a highschooler).
I study those civil engineeringf stuffs at Civil Engineering
and Environmental Department, Gadjah Mada University, right now. The very first
time I entered the building to attend the lectures, I was like: Oh, okay. It’s
my life right now, you have to deal with those numbers, formulas, blablabla.
And yes, I was really not into the environment there. I mean.. I didn’t really
socialize at that environment. I did the tasks, I met assistant, I met my
group, I attended lectures, then I went home or I met my boyfriend at that
time. There you go, you may say that I’m a Mahasiswa Kupu-Kupu (Kuliah-pulang
Kuliah-Pulang). At that time, I thought that I had enough life: Lectures, some
friend, and my-that-time-boyfriend. That’s all.
But things changed after the first semester. At the second
semester I joined events. And yes It changes my perpective. I met my dearest
friend, and become closer and moore closer. Her name is Aca. And of course I
began to know ‘em. I began to enjoy my every moments with them. I met crazy
fellas. I met seniors, I began to know my seniors whom I didn’t wanna know at
all before. Then I started thinking:
OKAY I’M IN LOVE IN THIS ENVIRONMENT,
WHERE HAVE YOU BEEN THIS WHOLE TIME YOU SHITHEAD? And I realized that I really
need another life, and this environment brought me what I really need. They
trusted me. And yes, I love em all. And I enjoyed every single time to be
there. I let my crazy side went crazier with them, with my friends at class.
And we laughed together. Talked shit and trashy things together.
Days passed, I met another guy. And yes, he opened my new
perspective. Eventhough now we’re not together just like how we used to back
then but what he said to me always remains: “You need to explore yourself.
Socialize more. You’re not that stupid to let your uni life goes flat.”
And yes of course. The 3rd semester goes really well in
social life –except my love life. I know this environment more than before. I
know more friends. And that time, I was so damn happy having times with that
fellas (but I’m not really happy in one thing: love life. Excuse :p). I really
enjoyed their happines. And up until now,
I love to capture their moments. To see their happines is a kind of huge
happines to me. Looking at their laugh and scream by viewfinder always fascinated
me.
So, what’s the point?
It’s enough, I had my first semester doing nothing and that’s
awful. And now I feel more loose, more human. Happier, of course. And I won’t
let any single minutes of this awesome life wasted.
And I thought that,
Don’t let any single thing hold you to explore yourself. You
can’t reverse the time. Enjoy every single moments that you have. Fall in love
with the moments. And don’t let yourself to be bounded. Break the limits. Know
more people, more and more and more each day. Socialize, because you will meet
a lot of people in the future and maybe they will help you in the future. And
always be good. And laugh more, you need to let your crazy side out of yourself
sometimes, it’s really okay to be nuts. Don’t let anyone distract you or forbid
what you wanna do. Just.. be happy, do what you love more and be good to
another people. Don’t overthink about what another might think. Just.. be good. J
And.. talking about their pictures.. Here are some photos that I took. :p THIS IS CIVILION! THIS IS CIVILION!
(God, I miss those moments. I miss their flaming euphoria! I want to capture agaaaain pleaase!)
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06.24
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Jumat, 03 Agustus 2012
monochrome
" Period recreation is very difficult unless you make a black-and-white movie."
currently in love with black and white.
it speaks its beauty in different way, you know? It's epic.
here is some picture from my high-school's promnite.
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