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10.01
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Rabu, 14 Mei 2014
You
I'm a common human being, just that kind of girl
I'm not good at words
I'm not good at writing
I'm an average
I'm not good at showing my emotions
I talk too much
And sometimes I talk less
I can't play instruments
I can't dance
I'm boyish. I'm both masculine and feminine in one body they said
I'm not that beauty
I lack of many things
But you,
You are the person I adored since the first time I know you in junior high school
And we went to the same highschool
I adored you more in highschool. You are one out of some amazing friends I had
And we went to the same college, yes
You are poetic
You are genius
You are their type of boyfriend
You are both bad boy and good boy
You are handsome. Don't argue, that's the fact
You are a great man
I know that I'm not your type
You know my stories well, I told you all about that
You know my love stories too. You know very well about me that can't move on back then. You also know about the other guy
I know yours too. I know your this and that you've told me
You told me about your love stories too. About your past. About you growing your hair because someone liked it.
That's why, that's why I don't really give a damn think too much about us. You are my friend, very very best friend and will always be
We went out together. And I always thought that it was just another bestfriendship-thingie
We went out, a lot
We talk, a lot
And I feel another things
But I was like: No. It's not like that it's not like that back to your sense pleaseee
Yes, a denial.
And you confessed something. It was like a thunder for me
I never thought that you have another thoughts
I could never ever imagine such man like you confessed your feelings to someone like me
I have no idea
I have no idea
I have no idea
I liked you too
But you know me well about what's stuck inside my brain
You know me well since I told you my stories:
I won't believe in love
I'm tired of being in love
I'm afraid to be in another relationship since October, since February
You know it
I told you to reconsider it eventho I also told you that I liked you
You told me this and that. You looked really honest
Your eyes, your words, your trembling voice, your trembling lips, your every moves
And I want some time to think
Because I won't it to be another instant crush
And I just want to ask
Why?
I'm not your type. I lack of many things.
But why? Why such a great man like you confess your love to me, the lacking immature girl?
I feel like I'm dreaming
Yes, dreaming.
JJ |
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11.19
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Jumat, 04 Mei 2012
hit the lights
 "The sun is gone. But I have a light."--Kurt Cobain Last Saturday was so amazing. Went out with B to spend the night. I asked him to go to Alun-Alun Kidul because I wanted to took some photos of light. I brought my Baby Cameron (Canon550D :D) and went out from "uri cib" at 8pm. And taraaaa, we arrived at Alun-Alun but there was a traffic jam. And what I didn't expect before.. There were a lot of another city's car spent the night there, in Alun-Alun. (Whoa, they really had many spare times I think.) I love lights. I love the way they shines my night. I love it when they play their colorful color. The colorful lights makes me feel joy by seeing them. That's why I like Alun-Alun Kidul. :p         
(I love this one!)
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06.42
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Minggu, 19 Februari 2012
gombalan macam apa inii?
Hey honey, Apa-apaan iniiiiiiiiiiii! Aw jadi gimana gitu digombalin orang pinter, ya gak ket? :p |
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18.15
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Kamis, 16 Februari 2012
PANIC! -ADDICT
here I am, a big fan of PANIC! AT THE DISCO!
gue tiap hari masih dengerin lagu-lagu dari A fever You Can't Sweat Out loh, Pretty Odd juga, sama yang baru Vices and Virtues. Ah Brandon ah Brandon ah BRANDOON!! Apalagi ini yang tiap hari PASTI gue denger tiap pagi Panic! At the Disco - Always When the world gets too heavy Put it on my back I'll be your levy You are taking me apart Like bad glue On a get well card It was always you Falling for me Now there's always time Calling for me I'm the light blinking at the end of the road Blink back to let me know I'm a fly that's trapped In a web But I'm thinking that My spider's dead Oh, lonely, lonely little life I could kid myself Thinking that I'm fine It was always you Falling for me Now there's always time Calling for me I'm the light blinking at the end of the road Blink back to let me know That I'm skin and bone Just a cane and rusty throne Oh, the castle's under siege But the sign outside says "Leave me alone" It was always you Falling for me Now there's always time Calling for me I'm the light blinking at the end of the road Blink back to let me know (It was always you) Blink back to let me know (It was always you) Oh please, Brandon Urie.. Can you just sing that song next to me, please? Your voice is so OUTRAGEOUS! "okay, baby. here I am."   aaaa xoxo |
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05.25
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Rabu, 15 Februari 2012
the only difference between you and angel is blablabla
well yeah, take a single look at the title, you'll know it's just another lovey dovey post. :p
jadi, kemaren, tiba-tiba kring kriiiiing--ada esemes dari orang yang familiar di hape gue-- gue buka, isinya: Kamu dimana? Gue jawab aja: Di rumah, knapa? Yah jujur sih ya, gue lagi agak males aja gitu sama dia, habis ditinggal ditinggal ditinggaaaal eeewh latihan nge-game lagi eeewh. And hape bunyi lagi. Ada sms: entar aku ke rumahmu ya, bentar Etdaah, mau ngapain coba. Many fantasies flew around in my mind that time. And yeah, one thing that surrounded is.. My imagination about -he's going to angry to me or something like that, then, something bad happen-. Just like our daily song, lagu galaau "jeongmal gaseumi eotteohke dwaenabwa, nunmul saranghae baboga dwaenabwaaaa..." Iya, terlalu imajinatif ya gue, sowwwyyy Suddenly, habis gue selese nonton flower boy ramyun shop, ada suara motor yang familiar juga. Man, he's truly coming! Gue kedepan dan segera pengen tau reason dia kenapa sudden sudden dateng gitu. Eh pas gue liat, dimotornya udah ada kantong kresek. "Ini nih buat kamu..." oh men, itu mister chicken. Yang gue suka banget. "Loh kamu tu dari mana e? Km kesini cuma..." "Aku dari rumah, iya kok aku cuma mau ngasih ini, makan ya ni yang anget-anget, kan kamu juga lagi sakit, gimana udah sembuh belom?" "eheh.. iya ini udah ga pusing, cuma pileknya nambah, hehehe" God shoot me now Gue speechless abis. Freeze moment banget, gue cuma ketawa ketiwi doang. Abis itu dia langsungan pulang. Ato kemana lah gue juga ga ngerti Gue buka kan itu mister ciken, laah. Surprisingly, ayamnya sayap! GUE SUKAA BANGET! dan di dalem ada COKLAT. Gue tambah shock. Apaan nih orang ngasih coklat gede gini. Tambah speechless gue. Gue sms aja deh itu orang, eh ga dijawab. Hadoh, bikin penasaran aja Dasar, guntur bagaskoro, sok-sok an banget kalo mau ngasih surprise, sok cool pula, sok gatau pula. Ahahahahha Yah, see? You, you are romantic in different ways, sometimes Neol, neottaemunae jinjja... |
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23.28
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Selasa, 25 Januari 2011
engineer ♥
gue baca di kaskus ciiiiiing. Iseng aja, eh jadi keinget.. Ehm #mukamerah
WHY GIRLS SHOULD MARRY AN ENGINEER? Why you should marry an Engineer? Let me tell you why girls should eventually marry an engineer over a Law, Management, Arts or Medical School Graduate. He has three distinct advantages over the rest of the graduates. Advantage 1: Secure lifestyle An engineer boyfriend can provide you with a secure lifestyle. At 27 years old, an engineer probably has a respectable, stable job that gives him a high income to own a car, invest, have a comfortable life, and get married and buy a house too. Law graduates are still working as a lowly apprentice in law firm. Most management graduates have just failed on their first business plan. The arts graduate is still looking for a job. And the medical school graduate is still living in a hospital. Advantage 2: Unmatchable industriousness An engineer boyfriend will dedicate an unimaginable amount of his time and effort to understand you. Engineers strain really really hard to understand their work. You can believe that they will try really really hard to understand women too, just like how they understand their work, once they believe that you are the one. So even if they don't understand you initially, they will keep on trying. Even if they still do not understand, they will figure out the correct method to keep you happy (e.g. buy diamond ring = 1 week's worth of happiness.) And once they find out the secret formula, they will just keep on repeating it so that the desired results appear. Unlike the Lawyer who will argue with you. The Management graduate who will try to control your spending, The Arts graduate who will 'change major'. And the medical school graduate who will operate on you. And you know what, it's really so easy to make engineer s believe that You are the 'one'. Say that you like one of their project and they will be hooked to you forever. Advantage 3: An engineer boyfriend will never betray your trust. Let me first tell you what is wrong with the rest of the others - The lawyers will lie about everything. Management graduates will cheat your money. The arts graduate will flirt, and you probably just look like another cadaver to the medical school graduate. Your engineer boyfriend is either too busy to have an affair, and even if he does, he is too dumb to lie to you about that. Hence, an engineer is the most secure boyfriend that you will ever find - rich enough, will keep on trying to understand and please you, has no time for affairs, and too dumb to lie to you. plus they are cooler than the others. KYAAAA~~ gue pengen jadi engineer loh B-) Trus B juga soon will be an engineer :) awawa my perfect boy ever ♥♥♥♥♥ |
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13.23
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Jumat, 31 Desember 2010
last piece of 2010
(I write this in my diary, and now I re-write it here. heheh :p)
Friday, December 31, 2010 Hello, how are you? Only a few hours counting down to 2011. How do you feel? So many things happened in 2010. Good things, bad things. But after all, 2010, and all the things that happened in it, are irreplaceable. I experienced so many things, got knowledge, and felt better in 2010. What about 2011? It just a few hours more, man. Well, who knows about 2011 right now? I just hope, that in 2011, I get more precious experience that can give me more knowledge of life. And I hope that I can show 100% of myself. Although so many things happened, I thought of listing down my top list moments in 2010. Well....
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00.16
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voyage and treader, squid and pink
Watch Narnia: The Voyage of The Dawn Treader today with my B. telat banget yak nontonya? So what amat deh. Well, it's AAAAAAAAA-AWE-SOME! Oh, Skandar Keynes Skandar Keynes Skandar Keynes!!
 Abis itu ke sekolah, for nothing--as usual Gue di pos satpam --disuruh jaga cobaaa-- nungguin B pulang dari ATM. Di pos satpam.. lalala I WATCHED SPONGEBOB SQUAREPANTS yeaaah! My favorite cartoon ever. Abis itu B dateng. We're spongebob-holic, maan. So, we watched it together Episode 1: Giant Squidward   Episode 2: No Nose Knows   THIS IS THE FUNNIEST EPISODE TODAY! Patrick is soooo cute there. Aaa I LOVE YOU, PATRICK STAR! But, well.. What an ending -__-"  |
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09.09
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Sabtu, 25 Desember 2010
sister in everything
 The girl in that purple kebaya is Saroh (of course, the yellow one is me) Although she's my cousin, she's my sister in everything. I learn many things from her. And I love her. |
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07.51
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Selasa, 21 Desember 2010
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17.29
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Minggu, 12 Desember 2010
oh na na.. what's my name..
B: Gimana, jawabanmu apa?
..... ..... A: Hm, gini.. Kamu tau ga kenapa "What's My Name" tu laguku banget? B: Lha kenapa emang? A: Ya dengerin aja... B: [Muter legu lewat hape] A: Dengerin reff nya.... itu bagian yang aku banget Rihanna feat. Drake - What's My NameB: Emang reff nya apa? A: Iiih ya dengerin, masa kamu gatau sih B: Hm.. Kalimat yang mana nih? 2? 3? A: Hm... Kalimat ke 1, 2, 3! B: Oh.. apasih sebenernya liriknyaa? A: Hiiiih ya dengerin bener-bener, kamu mesti dah baca liriknya B: Oh... A: [nutupin muka] B: Makasih yaa... A: [Masih nutupin muka] He eh.. masih inget ga? di depan S2, anginya sepoi-sepoi, suasananya disitu tenang banget padahal di lapteng sama daerah sekolah yang laen bener-bener rame, kita pas di spot-nya CCTV --->siaran langsung di pos satpam, dan aku belom mandi :p i love you. |
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10.45
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Selasa, 30 November 2010
newly..... :">
*this must be a really short post!
hello G.B.! i love you <3 21.11.10 |
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21.47
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Sabtu, 09 Oktober 2010
hei vegetable, hey fruit!
one new message:
SAYUUUUUUUR ;P hahaha kangen sak modaree ama itu nama panggilan, ama sms itu. AAAAAA!!! thanks for december 2009 - january - february - march 2010, that was the best moment ever. Thanks for the new experiences. pengen deh ya gue bisa temenan lagi ama lo, kaya sebelum desember-maret itu. Kayanya asik banget. Bisa temenan kaya dulu lagi. Hm. But I know it's a bit hard, right? Gue kangen dipanggil vegetable, sayur, dan gue juga kangen manggil lo FRUIT, buah :) |
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22.36
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Senin, 04 Oktober 2010
"when you love someone...."
when you love someoneWell, itu sms dari Ela buat gue yang.. emang nohok banget! Nusuk banget ke hati gue yang paling dasar. Gue udah lama ga naksir sama orang yang bener-bener bisa dikatakan mendekati cinta setelah yaa lu tau sendiri lah siapa, si buah busuk satu itu. Tapi, akhir-akhir ini gue bener-bener ngerasa suka menuju cinta ama seseorang. Sebenernya gue suka sama dia udah dari duluuuuuu buanget. Tapi cuma sekedar wow he’s funny, he’s powerful, wooo I like him. Ya gitu intinya, mengagumi. Tapi tapi tapi, sekarang…..gue berasa meledak kalo ketemu dia. Oh shit. Apalagi habis baca itu sms, yang kata temen gue itu adalah lirik lagu. Gue langsung bales smsnya dia Anis: Oh shitty, iki nohok banget, huaaaa maksud e opo e? Ela: Ini buat memotivasi kamu kali! Ealah ncen shitty, padakke gampang po tho? Gampang o ngomong “aku tresna sliramu.”? Angel! Aku ra gelem mati isin mlebu sumur jek, isih pegen urip aku. Sampai saat ini ga ada satu hal pun yang bisa memotivasi gue tentang cinta, hauhauhau~ “when you love someone, just be brave to say that you want him to be with you.” oke. I already fall in love with someone. Tapi ya, say=ngomong=bilang “aku tresna sliramu”, masalahnya, gue ga brave, mas. Mending masuk tipi aja deh daripada bilang I love you. Ya sih, I really want to be with you deh mas, banget. Tapi piye meneh, banyak kendala, hahahasu -__- kalo gue bilang kalimat maksiat “aku tresna sliramu” itu tadi, yang ada apa? Gue dihujat habis-habisan ama si mas-nya. Gue diem berdiri aja dikatain dari A-Z, palagi kalo gue bilang kalimat ^*!#$%)! Itu tadi. Ncen shitty.“When you hope your love, don’t ever let it go.” Gue ga terlalu ngarep ama tu masnya---oke, mulai sekarang kita sebut dia TUKIMAN. Oke, gue ga ngarep-arep amat tu ama mas tukiman ---ehm, jadi kaya nama tukang becak ya kayanya,? Ah so what amat--- tapi gue sadar kalo gue suka sama dia, mulai lope lope ama dia, sampe ela bilang… “iiih parah lu kalo udah gitu namanya pemujaan nis, PEMUJAAN! Kamu memuja dia, hii serem, dia bukan berhala nis! Istighfar!”Oke, Astaghfirullah.<----nyebut critanya. Gue juga sadar diri ni ceritanya, makanya gue tidak terlalu berharap. Walopun walopun walopun gitu.. gue juga ga bakal pengen dia pergi jauh-jauh dari gue, “eits! Gimana mau pergi deh ya, Dasar bodoh kamu nis!” “Or you will lose the chance to make your dreams come true.” INI DIA! Kalimat yang bener bener menohok gue dari depan, belakang, samping, dan 8 arah mata angin. Iya, sadar bener gue, kalo selama ini emang gue ga ngelakuin apa-apa. Jadi sebenernya ya gue udah lumayan lose the chance mungkin. Sampe sekarang, setik ini, gue masih belom tau gimana caranya biar that dream could become true. Lalalalala, tapi tetep aja, gue sadar, perbandingan antara possible dengan impossible bisa 2:10 (~,~)Hei, mas tukiman yang ada disana, di rumahnya, apakah selama ini anda sadar kalau ada saya? Sadar gal u? woy woy woy… Anyway, gue cewe, mas. Bagaimanapun juga, gue terlalu jaim, apalagi buat yang namanya pedekate siape ama ente. Hah, so what deh ya, gue sih mikirnya let it flow dan masa bodoh. Kalo jodoh ya tolong ya Allah, dekatkan aku dengan dia, tapi kalo emang bukan, buat kita bisa menjadi teman yang everlasting. Amin. |
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21.34
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Senin, 18 Januari 2010
I'm a 'WHATEVER-GIRL'
I don’t know. Maybe I’m mad or something, maybe I was possessed.
My friend asked me,” Hey! What happen with you? You’re day dreaming all time! Wake up! Are you possessed?” She shook my body. Then I shocked, “No. No! That’s Incubus! The Incubus disturbed me. Ah he asked me to live with him. No! If I live with him, what kind of child would I have? Half-blood? Half-human? Half-demon? Noo! That’s him,” I pointed to the north,” Get away from me. Argh,” then, my body got weaker than before,” Uh, help me, I really dizzy. He’s so damn, Incubus.” Then, my friend helped me to calming me down. I know, the Incubus, that’s just a lie to cover my stupidity. Big LIE. No one will believe it. I know I 'm a fool from the rubbish. Yes. I was really MAD this day. I lost my self-control. Ah, lives as a fool, then, you were dying. Simple, Right? That’s me. Live with all of this… Stupidity Well. I feel really… awkward this day. Mad. Really Over acting. Talk too much. Sleep. That’s strange, for me. Why? I think because of one reason.. That kid… Yes. Him. I think about that kid all time. Think about what will happen to him because of my stupidity. What kind of stupidity? Well, I told about that kid to my ex, accidentally. Okay? Accidentally! Ah stupid me. And I just realized that I was wrong. I shouldn’t do that. That’s just entering a new problem. Ah! What did I do? I just pushed myself to the black-hole. Damn. I think about ‘what will happen to my boy –that kid-‘ all time. I’m mad because of that. I can’t drive myself to the right moves now. I just think about him. He filled my brain, my heart. This problem, exactly. Ah God, what should I do? WHAT SHOULD I DO? Another one, Ehm, He hasn’t text me this day. No. Not yet. ARGH WHATEVER. I was really stupid. And it’s my fault. All of this shits=my faults. I don’t know what I should do. But my friend told me,” Just let it flow..” WHAT? LET IT FLOW? It’s not easy, you know? This was 10 times difficult than mathematics. (I know, impossible, this just for dramatically effect). Oh yes. No. Whatever. Now, I’m a “WHATEVER-GIRL” whatever.whatever.whateve.whatever. |
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22.14
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Jumat, 08 Januari 2010
SHERLOCK HOLMES!
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 sad|Ehm. 2010! Happy new yeaaar! Ahahaa :p teeelaaat banget! Oh okay, kemaren sabtu, gue pergi ke XXI, nonton laah sama temen, Azmi. Sebenernya dia ngajakin gue nonton avatar, tapi liat jadwalnya, ga mungkin kan gue pulang sampe rumah jam enem? Akhirnya gue tertarik nonton SHERLOCK HOLMES. Dia sih nurut nurut aja, ehehe. Abis itu kita ngantri sekitar setengah jam, dan akhirnya dapet juga 6 tiket! (well, gue beli 4 buat temen temen gue yang nyusul dan si Azmi beli 2 buat kita). Abis itu gue ama azmi nunggu di luar, duduk duduk bangku depan panggung. Ngobrol ngobrol ketawa ketiwi and sooo on. Jam 12 kurang 10 kita masuk lagi, kebelet pipis gua ceritanya. Abis pipis kita beli popcorn ama soft drink, abis itu kita masuk ke studio, ketemu deh ama temen-temen gue: Ella, Mappa, Afiq, Wida. Tapi kita duduknya misah, gue ama Azmi di row J, mereka berempat di D (kayaknya sih)  *hello, sherlock! Pilemnya mulai! Dan pilemnya.. AWESOME! Serius tapi ada humornya sih dikit karena kebegoan Mr. Holmes yang ga ketebak (gue suka ni film film kaya gini) And about SHERLOCK HOLMES.. sumpah.. AWESOME! Four thumbs up! Pinter, Bau aja sampe apal, jenis tinta, tapak sepatu, baju aja sampe bisa tau jenis jenisnya men, yang paling gue suka.. pas dia mecahin kasus si sapa namanya? Black sapa? Ya itulah… iya gue sukaaa banget bagian itu, bagian pas dia ngulang bukti-bukti yang dia temuin. Detaiil banget. Makan apa sih? Dan pas itu gue langsung berkata dalem hati,” Ah mister holmes, sini sini mending otaknya buat aku aja, buat aku ya ya? Kan aku masih sekolaaaah, oke? Ya ya yaa…” *gubrak! Sadar nis! Untung pas itu gue langsung disodorin minum ama si Azmi…:) lol  Filmnya selese, tujuan pertama kita: KAMAR MANDI. Oh ya dan kamar mandinya penuh banget. Abis itu gue keluar. Kita langsung ke parkiran tanpa sempet ketemu afiq ama wida, yaa masih sempet ketemu ela ama mappa sih, tapi gue langsung ngikut si Azmi. Kita malah diem di parkiran ampe agak lama, ngobrol dan bingung mau kmana, akhirnya gue nurut aja deh dia ngajakin ke tempat maen WII? Yah apalah tu. Sampe di tempatnya, gue kaget. Oh nitendo? Ah mending makaaaaan  . Trus gue ngajak dia ke WS, dan dia nurut, eheheheheEntah knapa, hari itu, di XXI, di WS, gue heran ama orang-orang. Gue heran ama cara mandang mereka ke gue. Apa yang salah? Rambut? Oh ya emang berantakan, tapi udah gue rapiin pake jari. Baju? Ga kekecilan ko, walopun itu baju adek gue yang masih kelas satu esde. Trus apa? Tas? Gelang? Ato gara-gara gue jalan berdua ama Azmi? Tauk -__- yang bener-bener gue krasa banget waktu di WS. Ada pegawainya yang pas ngeliat gue tu sampe bener bener diperhatiin, kaya baru aja ngeliat buronan kabur  .Azmi: Kamu kenapa mbak? Anis: (masih ngeliatin orangnya, sambil ngomong dalem ati,”apa lu? Apa? Ada yang salah sama gue? Apa? Ih sumpaaah ya knapa siih?” Azmi: Mbak? Anis: Eh ya? Apa, oh aku gapapa kok Dan ditambah lagi ama segerombolan cewe cewe yang duduk di sebelah barat daya gue ama Azmi, mereka ngeliatin gue, ah SOWAT MEN! Udah ah peduli amet, gue langsung nglanjutin makan aja. Finally gue pulang, gue minta dianter ke halte. Trus dia balik ke rumahnya, ato malah mampir ke tempat laen? Gue gatau Yang jelas hari itu mood gue diancurin ama orang-orang yang ngeliatin gue dengan pandangan aneh itu .But… I give my special thanks to… AZMI! For cheering me up and for everything :p Oh especially, thanks for bring me out from home. THANKS! 
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