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Rabu, 14 Mei 2014
You
I'm a common human being, just that kind of girl
I'm not good at words
I'm not good at writing
I'm an average
I'm not good at showing my emotions
I talk too much
And sometimes I talk less
I can't play instruments
I can't dance
I'm boyish. I'm both masculine and feminine in one body they said
I'm not that beauty
I lack of many things
But you,
You are the person I adored since the first time I know you in junior high school
And we went to the same highschool
I adored you more in highschool. You are one out of some amazing friends I had
And we went to the same college, yes
You are poetic
You are genius
You are their type of boyfriend
You are both bad boy and good boy
You are handsome. Don't argue, that's the fact
You are a great man
I know that I'm not your type
You know my stories well, I told you all about that
You know my love stories too. You know very well about me that can't move on back then. You also know about the other guy
I know yours too. I know your this and that you've told me
You told me about your love stories too. About your past. About you growing your hair because someone liked it.
That's why, that's why I don't really give a damn think too much about us. You are my friend, very very best friend and will always be
We went out together. And I always thought that it was just another bestfriendship-thingie
We went out, a lot
We talk, a lot
And I feel another things
But I was like: No. It's not like that it's not like that back to your sense pleaseee
Yes, a denial.
And you confessed something. It was like a thunder for me
I never thought that you have another thoughts
I could never ever imagine such man like you confessed your feelings to someone like me
I have no idea
I have no idea
I have no idea
I liked you too
But you know me well about what's stuck inside my brain
You know me well since I told you my stories:
I won't believe in love
I'm tired of being in love
I'm afraid to be in another relationship since October, since February
You know it
I told you to reconsider it eventho I also told you that I liked you
You told me this and that. You looked really honest
Your eyes, your words, your trembling voice, your trembling lips, your every moves
And I want some time to think
Because I won't it to be another instant crush
And I just want to ask
Why?
I'm not your type. I lack of many things.
But why? Why such a great man like you confess your love to me, the lacking immature girl?
I feel like I'm dreaming
Yes, dreaming.
JJ |
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15.52
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Minggu, 16 Maret 2014
A Music Nostalgia
Kali ini gue mau curhat tentang musik. Yep.
Karena seperti biasa, gue dan Aghnia nongkrong di
IndieCology sembari belajar dan mengerjakan tugas. (Ya, kedokteran dan teknik
bersatu untuk belajar bersama, nggak make sense juga sih sebenernya). Dan Indie
ini menjadi tempat favorit kita, kita juga udah punya meja sakral sendiri: di
indie-middle, disamping jendela. Kalopun meja itu dipake orang, kata Nia masih
ada meja yang bisa mengawasi (gue sebenernya juga ga paham her kind of
mengawasi itu yang kaya gimana), dan tetap di middle. Pokoknya tempat sakral
kita itu di middle, deket bar nya Indie.
Okay. Back to the topic.
Biasanya kita kalo kesini dari sore, daan seperti biasa.
Jam-jam siang-sore itu pasti lagunya galau. Apalagi Raisa. Tapi kalo udah
menjelang maghrib gitu, itu pas banget prime time nya playlist mbak-mbak sama
mas-mas Indie: Ada muse, Linkin Park, yang Alternative-Rock gitu, dan juga
Adelle (well, at least galau tipe Adelle lebih mending daripada Raisa). Dan..
Suasana di Indie Middle ini bak booth karaoke banget. Gue sama Nia juga sering
nyanyi ngikutin lagu-lagu di Indie tanpa peduli makhluk-makhluk di sekitar.
Mungkin ini kali ya yang bikin kita ketagihan kesini. Hoho.
Nah, kemaren, diputerlah lagu-lagu lama. Gue sama Nia jadi
semacam nostalgia. Ngomongin lagu-lagu jaman dulu 2000an, jaman MTV, dan gimana
band-band sekarang tuh albumnya ga sebagus album mereka yang dulu-dulu. Dan
ngomongin musik emang gapernah abis sama ini bocah. We have the same taste.
Dari mulai ngomongin gue jadi suka lagunya The Cure, lalu
kita nyanyi bagian “Show me, Show me, Show me” nya, trus tiba-tiba nyambung
nyanyiin Ramones. Trus abis itu ngomongin Album-album kompilasi jaman dulu,
ngomongin Linkin Park jaman dulu, ngomongin kalo dulu lagunya Fort Minor itu
bagus buanget. Ngomongin Paramore yang bagusnya cuma album 1-2 doang, ngebahas
kalo dulu ada Evanescene, trus ngebahas MTV awards, ngomong 30 Seconds To Mars
dan album pertama-kedua nya yang bagus dan album ketiganya yang bagus banget,
nyanyiin lagunya Queen yang Bohemian Rhapsody dan dimantepin pas bagian Bismillah.
Ngomongin Foo Fighters, dan Dave Grohl tentunya, dan Nirvana sambil niruin
bagian “Yeah” nya doang di Smells Like A Teen Spirits. Dan Incubus dengan vokalisnya yang ganteng dan
suaranya yang oh my lord bikin deg-deg-an. Intinya ngomongin lagu-lagu jaman
dulu dan jaman childhood kita. Kesimpulannya adalah: MUSIC WAS TOTALLY WAY MORE
AWESOME BACK THEN.
Bahkan dulu jaman-jaman Chris Brown baru banget (jaman masih
pake baggy pants and baggy shirt yang keren pada jamannya), jamannya Ne-Yo,
Usher, itu aja keren banget. Ga cuma Alternative ato Rock doang yang totally
awesome, musik-musik begitu dulu juga keren sekali. Dulu jaman Justin
Timberlake dengan Sexy Back dan My Love nya, Hoobastank, M2M trus Marion Raven
keluar dan ngeluarin album solo, nah TATU juga ada, dan maaaasih banyak lagi.
And music nowadays were full of EDM. I’m not saying that I
don’t like EDM at all. I like David Guetta, tapi cuma sampe album Nothing But
The Beat. I like Zedd, Calvin Harris, Hardwell, Armin Van Buuren, Paul Van Dyk,
Gesaffelstein, sama Swedish House Mafia. Menurut gue sih yang bagus itu doang.
Kalo DJ lain kadang tunes nya too much, bikin sakit telinga. Tapi ini no
offense loh ya, Cuma pendapat gue pribadi aja sih.
I’m not saying that music nowadays are bad. No. They’re just
good, but not as good as back then. Cuma musik sekarang kebanyakan ga remains
in our mind, our heart. Jadi denger beberapa kali, bosen, yaudah.
Mungkin karena jaman udah beda kali ya. Tapi emang beda
baget sih. Ato mungkin karena gue ini nostalgia jadi perasaannya beda. Tapi
intinya good music remains. Mau itu lama atau baru (walaupun kebanyakan yang
lama-lama :p). Dan setiap orang punya taste masing-masing. J
Tapi gue juga ga kuno-kuno amat lah. Gue masih tau lagu-lagu
sekarang yang baru baru itu. Gue juga suka. Sebut deh siapa, Pitbull, Jay Z,
Fun, One Republic, Lorde, Eminem, dan lain-lain (gamungkin disebutin semua kan?
Banyak banget). Cuma, mungkin belom se remain lagu-lagu dulu di dalem hati. :p
And thanks I had my childhood life full of MTV and Guitar
Hero. J
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Rabu, 07 Maret 2012
I'm Singing My Blues...
Gyeouri gago bomi chajaojyo urin sideulgo Kenapa ya, disaat kamu selalu berusaha buat all out buat orang laen, kamu selalu pengen yang terbaik buat orang lain, tapi kamu malah, yaa... Istilahnya disia-sia. Padahal kamu selalu whole-hearted buat ngelakuin semuanya, termasuk buat melakukan yang terbaik buat orang lain. Padahal kamu selalu ikhlas buat ngelakuin semuanya. Padahal kamu lebih suka buat orang lain bahagia daripada diri kamu sendiri. Well, well, well... Pas kamu sayang sama orang, kamu sepenuh hati sayang sama orang itu. Tapi orang itu malah memperlakukan kamu yang, ya... Kaya ga nunjukin rasa sayangnya sama sekali sama kamu. Trus gimana? Bakal ngrasa nggak sih kalo perasaanmu yang bener-bener pure whole hearted itu sia-sia? Kalo gitu, rasanya kaya ada sesuatu yang menghambat your boiling feeling. Jadinya perasaanmu terpendam. Bingung. Bingung mau menyalurkan itu gimana. Ngrasa sendiri. Apalagi disaat-saat seperti ini, hardest part ever in highschool time. Disaat kamu bener-bener butuh dukungan, bener-bener butuh sesuatu yang bisa nenangin batin kamu. Tapi semua buram. It's going to be blurry blue... Ujian, ujian, ujian... Itu mah dateng kapan aja. Yang penting ambil pelajarannya lah. And, jangan pernah menyesal. Karena menyesal itu mental pengecut. And well.. Apa pelajaran yang udah aku dapet adalah: Don't expect too much about something. But always give your best to do all things. Even if it's hard, you have to do it with your heart. Ikhlas, just depends to Allah I always try to do all things Lillahita'ala, jadinya ikhlas, gak beban sama sekali. Termasuk buat hal ini. Termasuk buat punya perasaan ini. I'm going through it whole-heartedly Even if it's hard. Sorry, gue cuma curhat Ga maksud buat mendayu-dayu Oneuldo paran jeo dalbicharae-e na hollo |
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Jumat, 17 Desember 2010
flower
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Rabu, 20 Januari 2010
thanks, friends :)
 Leila Rakhma Budiarti Fariz Kautsar Ramadhani Arjuna Lubis Ivan Pratama Yurika Gunawan Mario Kurniawan Sukma Wicaksana Abdi Rangga Perwiratama I love you, buddies! ps: I'm sorry if I'm wrong to write your name :p |
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Senin, 18 Januari 2010
lotus...
 The sacred gem of compassion Floats serenely On a shimmering lake The soft petals Awaken Bathing in the light Of a gleaming gold sunset Caressed by the breeze As it chants With such eloquence Yet so silent Charming the depths of our souls With its purity  Intoxicating our spirits With its charm Mesmerizing our thoughts With its tranquility So alluring Yet so untouchable One of nature’s delicacies Like the birth of a child Like a mother’s love Like friendship A beauty That cannot be described But felt In the depth of our souls Where our hearts lay exposed Craving the companionship Of love And compassion This graceful lotus flower Whose seed being the stagnant water Sprouted radiantly through The muddiest floors With a pristine bloom Teaching us To never adhere ourselves To the dirt in life But to grow and progress To the most important destination And shine through To the peaceful paradise Just like a lotus For it travels through “The primeval mud of materialism Through the waters of experience And into the bright sunshine of enlightenment” Revitalized Despite the obstacles in its path For life is a journey Where every moment Is a step closer to your purpose And every experience Is a source of wisdom So live and let live... |
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Senin, 23 Maret 2009
NUS :)
hello blog, I write a posting again
 hehe i remember my father said to me, "hey nis, i hope you can get in foreign university. if you get in, i'll vouched for your life there." okay, from this, i thought a lot of my father's said, and from now, i thought twice about this: become a foreign university student after read some newspapers, some articles in internet, i've take my choice, foreign university i will. I'll take my bachelor degree in university that close enough from indonesia. and the university is... NUS, national university of singapore      this is the logo!  yea, i really really wanna become its student! about the faculty, i opened NUS' website a moment ago, and there are many interesting faculty there, and the faculty i will is there! faculty: engineering course: Industrial and Systems Engineering yeyyy! and when i be a senior high school student (delayota's student) i'll looking for the schoolarship, to helped out my parents. yea this is just my hope, but i want this come true but if don't, i'll school in UGM (this is the last choice), with the same faculty and course i want in NUS, engineerig, industrial and system engineering being one of NUS student, hope it will be come true okay, it's enough today i wanna have a sleep, bye   love, anis    Label: amazing, catatan aku, destination, dream, drooling, favorite, home, hope, mad computer, obvious, peculiar girl's workbook, silly, thought |