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10.01
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Rabu, 14 Mei 2014
You
I'm a common human being, just that kind of girl
I'm not good at words
I'm not good at writing
I'm an average
I'm not good at showing my emotions
I talk too much
And sometimes I talk less
I can't play instruments
I can't dance
I'm boyish. I'm both masculine and feminine in one body they said
I'm not that beauty
I lack of many things
But you,
You are the person I adored since the first time I know you in junior high school
And we went to the same highschool
I adored you more in highschool. You are one out of some amazing friends I had
And we went to the same college, yes
You are poetic
You are genius
You are their type of boyfriend
You are both bad boy and good boy
You are handsome. Don't argue, that's the fact
You are a great man
I know that I'm not your type
You know my stories well, I told you all about that
You know my love stories too. You know very well about me that can't move on back then. You also know about the other guy
I know yours too. I know your this and that you've told me
You told me about your love stories too. About your past. About you growing your hair because someone liked it.
That's why, that's why I don't really give a damn think too much about us. You are my friend, very very best friend and will always be
We went out together. And I always thought that it was just another bestfriendship-thingie
We went out, a lot
We talk, a lot
And I feel another things
But I was like: No. It's not like that it's not like that back to your sense pleaseee
Yes, a denial.
And you confessed something. It was like a thunder for me
I never thought that you have another thoughts
I could never ever imagine such man like you confessed your feelings to someone like me
I have no idea
I have no idea
I have no idea
I liked you too
But you know me well about what's stuck inside my brain
You know me well since I told you my stories:
I won't believe in love
I'm tired of being in love
I'm afraid to be in another relationship since October, since February
You know it
I told you to reconsider it eventho I also told you that I liked you
You told me this and that. You looked really honest
Your eyes, your words, your trembling voice, your trembling lips, your every moves
And I want some time to think
Because I won't it to be another instant crush
And I just want to ask
Why?
I'm not your type. I lack of many things.
But why? Why such a great man like you confess your love to me, the lacking immature girl?
I feel like I'm dreaming
Yes, dreaming.
JJ |
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23.47
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Minggu, 29 April 2012
rebirth
Long time no post!
Whoaaa kaget juga gue ngeliat tampilan blog jadi baru gini, jadi berasa gaptek. Hah okay skip skip. Gue baru aja selesai UAN *sebenernya gak baru aja selesainya, udah agak lama malah, tapi gue aja yang baru mau cerita. Well yeah, just pray for me. I'm not expecting too much. I'm just hoping that I can pass the national examination and SNMPTN. Amin. Ah iya, something special about the examnination... The first day of the test was my 18 birthday. Yep, 16 April. Hari itu gue ga lupa sama ulang tahun gue, cuma gue ga ngerasa aja kalo itu hari ulang tahun. Tapi, gue ngerasa dapet so much blessing that day. Alhamdulillah :') From Allah, from my parents, families, and friend. Terharu banget gue waktu gue dateng, trus anak-anak pada bilang "woy happy birthday!" "wedyaaaaan ulang tahunya pas uan" "whooo gara-gara kamu ulang taun sih nis jadinya uan to.." (yang terakhir ini emang jayus). Trus habis itu anak-anak kelas gue pada nyanyi happy bithday to you ke gue. Gue nangis. God, di pagi pertama ujian, menunggu pintu dibuka, mereka malah nyanyi. Sumpah terharu banget gue, sampe nangis. Thanks a looot :D Ah, dan siangnya, Bagaskoro datang. dan ternyata dia membawa kue dari toko roti kesukaan gue (yah, feeling gue sih yaa dia ke toko roti itu gara-gara itu toko roti yang deket rumah dan searah sama jalan ke rumah gue, bukan karna itu toko kesukaan gue. *ahahahaha no offense loh mas :p) Dan dia nyanyi happy bithday happy bithday gitu. Hoho. Unyu banget sih lo :p ![]()
Di umur gue yang ke 18 ini, gue ngerasa tambah bersyukur atas segala yang udah gue dapet. Bersyukur karena gue masih dilancarkan ujian nya, bersyukur karena ortu gue bisa ke tanah suci. Beryukur semuanyaa
And I feel something different.
Now, I'm feeling so free like a balloon. But, feel free to fly needs some time. Now, I enjoy the time being like this. I feel free to anyone, feel free to express my feeling, feel free to say what I wanna say, to do what I wanna do, feel free to own my feelings, and feel free to be free. Anyone have their own maturation way and I think that God gives me this kind of feeling as the way of my grown up process.
This is what I feel, rebirth. Feels so free is really fun. This is another blessing for me from God.
This may will be the hardest month of my school-life. I'll study, full a week, to face the SNMPTN. I hope that this rebirth and bless will encourage me.
fighting!
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15.09
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Senin, 09 April 2012
nonsense
Listening to this song again.
T-Pain feat. Benny Benassi - Electroman. "I am Electroman... You are Electrogirl..." No. You're no longer my Electroman, and.. I won't be an Electrogirl anymore. "Sarangeun modeun gaseul chiyu hamnida" ---Aih. Bullshit. |
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13.19
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Selasa, 27 Maret 2012
bored.
gruesome greeting Minggu ini sekolah is totally menjengkelkan. Pelajaran banyak kosong, hari-hari menjelang UAN gini justru acaranya gajelas banget di sekolah. dampaknya: GUE JADI BOSEN. Gue bosen sekolah. Gue bosen ngapa-ngapain. Sumpah, gue ngrasa penaaaaaaaaaat terus. What's wrong actually? karena gue bosen, dan mungkin agak banyak pikiran juga, gue jadi sensitif. Tiap hari brasa PMS. Buat orang-orang yang di sekeliling gue, maafkanlah karena gatau kenapa bawaanya pengen emosi terus. Dan yaa beruntunglah deh ya wanita, jadi gue bisa make PMS sebage alesan. "Lu kok marah-marah sih nis?" Sorry, PMS... biasa wanita... Hari-2 "Laah sekarang lo kenapa lagi?" Masih PMS, gue kan cewek normal Hari-3 "Yaoloh sensitif mulu ni orang, kebanyakan nonton sinetron yaa?" bukan bego, PMS deh kayaknya. Ah gini nih jadi cewek.. Hari-4 ^&*%$!%^#!*#*(marah-marah ceritanya...) "Lu sampe sekarang masih PMS?" Iye gue kan cewek, masalah buat lo? Hari-5 "Aniiiiis udah ah jangan emosi terus, masa dari kemaren kamu kaya gini, gaasik ah.." yang cewek itu gue, yang PMS juga gue, apaan sih urus-urus Hari-6 Mati aja lo nis... Bahkan Bigbang-pun tidak bisa totally menyembuhkan kebosenan gue sekarang ini. bahkan film-film Thailand yang gue download juga ga bisa ngilangin rasa bosan yang merasuk ini. Dan haha-hihi di sekolah sama anak-anak juga cuma bisa ngilangin bosen pas di sekolah doang. Kalo udah pulang? Yodah deh bosen lagi Dan yang menyebalkan lagi adalah Bagaskoro tidak mengajaku main. AAAAAAAA, please deh mas bagas, aku bosen. Kamu tau? B-O-S-A-N. Ajak gue nonton the Raid kek. Main kek. Apa kek.. Gue gakuat kalo gini lama-lama. Hari ini aja gue mencoba ngilangin kebosanan gue. Yaa sekalian cari suasana buat belajar matematika dan teman-temanya yang bikin pusing itu. Gue pergi ke Essen, kafe gaul di Gedongkuning, deket rumah. Yaaa a bit relieved sih yaa. Habis minum chocolate-pot rasanya semua pikiran ikut ngalir ke dalem perut. Recommended nih, hot chocolate-nya enak, pancake-nya apalagi. Enak banget. harganya makanan sama minumannya antara 10.000-20.000. Murah, kenyang lagi. Yumm Hasil dari essen: kenyang minum coklat sama dapet belajar matematika. Sambil nyelem nelen air! karena gue bosen dan gabisa fokus terus-terusan makan soal, gue foto-foto pake webcam. Rasanya kaya udah ga kenal sama kata norak. So what amat yang penting gue gak bosen. Yeaaaaaaay Ini nih chocolate-pot nyaaaaa :9 |
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15.16
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Jumat, 16 Maret 2012
let it 'flo'
Aloha! Hola! Alohan! Ikan Lohan!
Besok udah hari ke-6 usek loh teman-teman. But, ini usek apa usek sih ya. Jujur nih, gue ga ngerasain euforia-nya blaas! (Yes I know, pelajar macam apa ini guee) By the way, so many things hapenned during this week, and past two weeks. Terutama yang terjadi sama mereka. Gue gatau sebenernya persoalannya apa kenapa mereka bisa sampe kaya gini. Kenapa mereka marahan. Kenapa gak ada yang ngalah. Kenapa mereka bikin gue sedih. Kenapa gue harus denger salah satu dari mereka nangis. Please.. Jangan kaya gini Please.. Dan juga dia. Hei, kenapa sih sama lo? Udah berapa kali gue mohon-mohon, please.. Ngertiin isi hati gue dong, please... Tapi apa? It seems like semua kata-kata yang udah gue keluarin tu cuma kayak baca sekilas trus langsung balik halaman. Sambil lalu. Kenapa sih justru pas gue mulai ujian lo jadi kaya gini? gue salah apa? Please.... Dan ga ada yang bisa jawab pertanyaan "gue salah apa" itu... Gue cuma curhat. Since people that I love so much all gone, gue cuma bisa nulis. I love all of my friends, but I'm not that kind of girl yang tanpa ditanya bisa dengan gampangnya cerita semua tentang masalah pribadi. Walopun semuanya terjadi di saat-saat rentan kaya gini, gue tetep harus bersyukur. Bersyukur. Terus bersyukur... Seenggaknya gue bukan orang yang "too much think about something" jadi let it flow, flow, and flow. Gue tetep bisa ngerjain semuanya, ulangan, aktivitas, karena gue gasuka nyampur-nyampurin aktivitas sama masalah pribadi. Yah walopun gitu gue kan tetep ngerasa butuh cerita. uuuuuuu u,u Gue lagi di flo coffee niih. Coffee-ing all day, chitato-ing all day. Even both of them are a bit incompatible with my body condition but still, I drink much of coffee and eat a lot of chitato. Since there are no one cares about me right now. Wuaaaaaaah Walopun sekarang kayaknya orang-orang yang gue sayang banget itu ngilang, tp gue tetep punya kopi. One thing that I love so much too. Ya gak? Kopito.. Kopito.... Minum kopi bikin gue tenang. Well yeah... Ah iya, kalo kemaren waktu di peacock gue sebelahan sama mas-mas gangster yang ngrokokan dan ngrokoknya itu aneh, sekarang gue di Flo malah cewek sendiri. Dikelilingi lelaki-lelaki tampang distro yang JUGA NGEROKOK. Dan mereka memenuhi ruangan di Flo ini. Gue tersudut di pojokan. Dan kalo gue duduk eh mundurnya kelewatan, gue bakal jatoh di kolam ikan. Kampret. Aduh bagaimana ini saya wanita sendiriaaaaan rawr. |
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18.15
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Kamis, 16 Februari 2012
PANIC! -ADDICT
here I am, a big fan of PANIC! AT THE DISCO!
gue tiap hari masih dengerin lagu-lagu dari A fever You Can't Sweat Out loh, Pretty Odd juga, sama yang baru Vices and Virtues. Ah Brandon ah Brandon ah BRANDOON!! Apalagi ini yang tiap hari PASTI gue denger tiap pagi Panic! At the Disco - Always When the world gets too heavy Put it on my back I'll be your levy You are taking me apart Like bad glue On a get well card It was always you Falling for me Now there's always time Calling for me I'm the light blinking at the end of the road Blink back to let me know I'm a fly that's trapped In a web But I'm thinking that My spider's dead Oh, lonely, lonely little life I could kid myself Thinking that I'm fine It was always you Falling for me Now there's always time Calling for me I'm the light blinking at the end of the road Blink back to let me know That I'm skin and bone Just a cane and rusty throne Oh, the castle's under siege But the sign outside says "Leave me alone" It was always you Falling for me Now there's always time Calling for me I'm the light blinking at the end of the road Blink back to let me know (It was always you) Blink back to let me know (It was always you) Oh please, Brandon Urie.. Can you just sing that song next to me, please? Your voice is so OUTRAGEOUS! "okay, baby. here I am." |
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23.28
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Senin, 30 Januari 2012
300++ days
huaaaah laa amat yak gue gak nulis beginian.. Anyway. HAPPY NEW YEAR YA! -oke, emang pantes buat ditampol, ini lusa udh februari woi!-
Begini deh hidup gue sekarang, agak ga karuan. Blog aja sampe ga keurus gini, kasian yak. Emang kaya gini ya yang namanya kelas 3? oh Ya Allah, I miss my old me, my old routines. Sekarang kerjaanya belajar capek tidur belajar lagi capek lagi. Oh shit men. Gue ga bisa datar terus-terusan begini!!! --->Ya kesimpulanya lo harus berjuang lebih keras dong nis biar semua kelar, trus lo sukses... Iya ngerti ngerti, AMIN! Gue kadang cm ngerasa sedih aja gitu, ngerasa stuck di problem yang sama: gampang ngantuk+susah belajar. Itu satu paket. Sekali belajar, slese brapa soal langsung ngantuk, dan begitu pula sebaliknya. Oh kenapa nih kenapaaaa. AAAAAA jiwaku ini kenapaaa Ya Allah aku kenapaaaaaaaaaaaa *jeritan seorang hamba Apa-apaan banget yak. Gue jadi ngerasa pathetic gini nih kelas tiga. Emang segini nya yak? Pathetic pelajaran, pathetic perasaan, pathethic pacar. Eh ya gak sih, nelangsa amat gue-__- ya yang terutama itu ya pathetic pelajaran. Oh God it's killing me adoh apaan banget nih postingan gue. The first post after 300+++++ days malah isinya galau-an gue semua. Sorry sorry deh, habis.. aku aku aku udah gabisa gitu nahan perasaan ini *lebay* Oiya, sbnernya dr kmrn gw pengen udh pengen nulis sih ya. Tapi eh tapi, ribet pengen ganti skin, nyari2 di blogskins, eh malah tambah ribet sendiri. yodah walhasil pake skin lama deh. Gak jelek jelek amat kok yaaa, kan soft gitu Anyway gue abis potong. Dan shit. kependekan. Rambut dr sepinggang jadi sepundak. What the-____________________- gini nih ya mbak mbak kapster salon, suka napsu kalo motong orang rambutnya panjang |
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23.53
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Sabtu, 01 Januari 2011
HAPPY NEW YEAAAR :D
"another year has passed a year of great importance that contained moments in which we will never forget And now, On 2011 prove to yourself that your life can get better, prove that 2011 can be the the best year of your life. Do all that you want to do. Dream, cry, smile, dance, study, scream, eat, sleep, sing, celebrate, read, work, love, win, loose, party, and many more. Do whatever you have and want to do, but, do with a huge smile on your face and happiness." HAPPY NEW YEAR!! Ga krasa ya sekarang udah 2011 aja. Wow. Bener-bener ga nyangka. Sumpah. Gatau knapa 2010 kmaren krasa cepeeeet banget. Seneng banget deh. For the first time, I celebrated new year's eve with B, watched fireworks together. Yeay! Well, I just hope that 2011 will be better than 2010, achieve what I dream of, and everything about B goes well. Yeah, I really want to be happy this year. |
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13.23
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Jumat, 31 Desember 2010
last piece of 2010
(I write this in my diary, and now I re-write it here. heheh :p)
Friday, December 31, 2010 Hello, how are you? Only a few hours counting down to 2011. How do you feel? So many things happened in 2010. Good things, bad things. But after all, 2010, and all the things that happened in it, are irreplaceable. I experienced so many things, got knowledge, and felt better in 2010. What about 2011? It just a few hours more, man. Well, who knows about 2011 right now? I just hope, that in 2011, I get more precious experience that can give me more knowledge of life. And I hope that I can show 100% of myself. Although so many things happened, I thought of listing down my top list moments in 2010. Well....
the end. |
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23.05
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Minggu, 26 Desember 2010
100 things
1) Last beverage: aer putih
2) Last phone call: guntur bagaskoro 3) Last text message: guntur bagaskoro 4) Last song you listened to: david archuleta - parachutes & airplanes 5) Last time you cried: tadi, gara-gara kaki gue kena kucing 6) Dated someone twice: no 7) Been cheated on: iya kali, haha ga tau ding 9) Lost someone special: yes 10) Been depressed: ngapain depresi, ahaha. maybe yes maybe no deh 11) been over seas: yes LIST THREE FAVORITE COLORS: 12) light blue 13) white 14) soft pink THIS YEAR HAVE YOU: 15) Made new friends: yeaah 16) Fallen out of love: YES 17) Laughed until you cried: yes 18) Met someone who changed you: hm gak tau deh, maybe yes 19) Found out who your true friends were: well.. 20) Changed someones life? haha i have no idea 21) Kissed anyone in your top friend's list: no 22) How many people on your friends list do you know in real life: hah? radong aku 23) How many kids do you want to have: 2 or 3 24) Do you have any pets: NO! 25) Do you want to change your name: big no! 26) Best Christmas present given? ga ngerayain 27) What time did you wake up today: 10.10 28) What were you doing at midnight last night: watch 'aeonflux', texting with him, listening to iTunes 29) Name something you can't wait for? read number 2 30) Last time you saw your father: tadi pas solat isya 31) What is one thing you wish you could change about your life? nothing. I love my life just the way it are 32) What are you listening to right now: far east movement - if i was you (OMG) (feat. snoop dogg) 33) Have you ever talked to a person named Tom: Tom Cruise. Dia ngomong ke gue lewat layar kaca 34) What's getting on your nerves right now: nothing 36) What's your real name Annisa Nur Hasanah 37) Relationship Status: in relationship 38) Zodiac sign: aries 39) Male or female: female 40) Natural Hair color: black 41) eye color: dark brown 43) Need Glasses: no 44) Long or short hair: long 45) Height: who cares? 46) Do you have a crush on someone: IYOLAAH. OF COURSE! 47) What do you like about yourself: i like all about myself 48) Piercings? No 49) Tattoos: tato gambar sendiri, make hena yang awetnya seminggu 50) Right or left handed: right handed FIRSTS: 51) First surgery : belom pernah. 52) First piercing: ears 53) First tattoo: di tangan, hadiah dari permen karet 100 perak 54) First best friend: juwita perwitasari 55) First sport you joined: gatau 56) First pet: I CAN'T BE AROUND WITH ANIMALS. hiiiiii 57) First vacation: bali 59) First crush: my neighbor. jaman kelas satu smp 61) Eating: nothing 62) Wearing: kaos, kolor 63) I'm about to: sit 64) Speaking to: myself 65) Waiting for? the day where I can meet him 66) Want kids? jelaas, besok sama halal gue 67) Want to get married? iyalaaaah 68) Carreers In Mind? engineer WHICH IS BETTER WITH THE OPPOSITE SEX 69) Eyes or lips: both 70) Hugs or kisses: hugs 71) Shorter or taller: taller 72) Older or Younger: older 73) Romantic or spontaneous: both 74) Nice stomach or arms? both 75) Tattoos or piercings? ojo lah 76) Sensitive or loud: sensitive 77) Hook-up or relationship: relationship 78) Trouble maker or hesitant: jangan deh HAVE YOU EVER. 79) Kissed a stranger: naujubilah 81) Lost glasses: no 82) Sex on first date: naujubilah 83) Broken someones heart? iya kali. ahahaha 84) Had your own heart broken: yes 85) Been arrested: no 86) Turned someone down: huh? 87) Cried when someone died: yeaah. 88) Liked a friend that is a girl? yoralaaaah. edan po DO YOU BELIEVE IN: 89) Yourself: jelas 90) Miracles: iya 91) Love at first sight: yes 92) Heaven: yes 93) Santa Claus: no 94) Kissing on the first date: haha 95) God: yeah ANSWER TRUTHFULLY: 96) Is there one person you want to be with right now: yeaah, my incubus 97) Had more than one boyfriend at the same time: wadwuuuuh, naujubilah 98) Do u believe its possible to remain faithful forever: yes. 99) What's the one thing you cannot live without? well, A LOT OF THINGS! 100) Posting this as 100 truths: yup! gini nih, gue ga punya ide buat ngepost apaan. Akhirnya gue copas lagi ni dari si Aghnia Amalia *tapi jawabanya gue ganti laaah. |
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10.01
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Rabu, 14 Mei 2014
You
I'm a common human being, just that kind of girl
I'm not good at words
I'm not good at writing
I'm an average
I'm not good at showing my emotions
I talk too much
And sometimes I talk less
I can't play instruments
I can't dance
I'm boyish. I'm both masculine and feminine in one body they said
I'm not that beauty
I lack of many things
But you,
You are the person I adored since the first time I know you in junior high school
And we went to the same highschool
I adored you more in highschool. You are one out of some amazing friends I had
And we went to the same college, yes
You are poetic
You are genius
You are their type of boyfriend
You are both bad boy and good boy
You are handsome. Don't argue, that's the fact
You are a great man
I know that I'm not your type
You know my stories well, I told you all about that
You know my love stories too. You know very well about me that can't move on back then. You also know about the other guy
I know yours too. I know your this and that you've told me
You told me about your love stories too. About your past. About you growing your hair because someone liked it.
That's why, that's why I don't really give a damn think too much about us. You are my friend, very very best friend and will always be
We went out together. And I always thought that it was just another bestfriendship-thingie
We went out, a lot
We talk, a lot
And I feel another things
But I was like: No. It's not like that it's not like that back to your sense pleaseee
Yes, a denial.
And you confessed something. It was like a thunder for me
I never thought that you have another thoughts
I could never ever imagine such man like you confessed your feelings to someone like me
I have no idea
I have no idea
I have no idea
I liked you too
But you know me well about what's stuck inside my brain
You know me well since I told you my stories:
I won't believe in love
I'm tired of being in love
I'm afraid to be in another relationship since October, since February
You know it
I told you to reconsider it eventho I also told you that I liked you
You told me this and that. You looked really honest
Your eyes, your words, your trembling voice, your trembling lips, your every moves
And I want some time to think
Because I won't it to be another instant crush
And I just want to ask
Why?
I'm not your type. I lack of many things.
But why? Why such a great man like you confess your love to me, the lacking immature girl?
I feel like I'm dreaming
Yes, dreaming.
JJ |
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23.47
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Minggu, 29 April 2012
rebirth
Long time no post!
Whoaaa kaget juga gue ngeliat tampilan blog jadi baru gini, jadi berasa gaptek. Hah okay skip skip. Gue baru aja selesai UAN *sebenernya gak baru aja selesainya, udah agak lama malah, tapi gue aja yang baru mau cerita. Well yeah, just pray for me. I'm not expecting too much. I'm just hoping that I can pass the national examination and SNMPTN. Amin. Ah iya, something special about the examnination... The first day of the test was my 18 birthday. Yep, 16 April. Hari itu gue ga lupa sama ulang tahun gue, cuma gue ga ngerasa aja kalo itu hari ulang tahun. Tapi, gue ngerasa dapet so much blessing that day. Alhamdulillah :') From Allah, from my parents, families, and friend. Terharu banget gue waktu gue dateng, trus anak-anak pada bilang "woy happy birthday!" "wedyaaaaan ulang tahunya pas uan" "whooo gara-gara kamu ulang taun sih nis jadinya uan to.." (yang terakhir ini emang jayus). Trus habis itu anak-anak kelas gue pada nyanyi happy bithday to you ke gue. Gue nangis. God, di pagi pertama ujian, menunggu pintu dibuka, mereka malah nyanyi. Sumpah terharu banget gue, sampe nangis. Thanks a looot :D Ah, dan siangnya, Bagaskoro datang. dan ternyata dia membawa kue dari toko roti kesukaan gue (yah, feeling gue sih yaa dia ke toko roti itu gara-gara itu toko roti yang deket rumah dan searah sama jalan ke rumah gue, bukan karna itu toko kesukaan gue. *ahahahaha no offense loh mas :p) Dan dia nyanyi happy bithday happy bithday gitu. Hoho. Unyu banget sih lo :p ![]()
Di umur gue yang ke 18 ini, gue ngerasa tambah bersyukur atas segala yang udah gue dapet. Bersyukur karena gue masih dilancarkan ujian nya, bersyukur karena ortu gue bisa ke tanah suci. Beryukur semuanyaa
And I feel something different.
Now, I'm feeling so free like a balloon. But, feel free to fly needs some time. Now, I enjoy the time being like this. I feel free to anyone, feel free to express my feeling, feel free to say what I wanna say, to do what I wanna do, feel free to own my feelings, and feel free to be free. Anyone have their own maturation way and I think that God gives me this kind of feeling as the way of my grown up process.
This is what I feel, rebirth. Feels so free is really fun. This is another blessing for me from God.
This may will be the hardest month of my school-life. I'll study, full a week, to face the SNMPTN. I hope that this rebirth and bless will encourage me.
fighting!
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15.09
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Senin, 09 April 2012
nonsense
Listening to this song again.
T-Pain feat. Benny Benassi - Electroman. "I am Electroman... You are Electrogirl..." No. You're no longer my Electroman, and.. I won't be an Electrogirl anymore. "Sarangeun modeun gaseul chiyu hamnida" ---Aih. Bullshit. |
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13.19
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Selasa, 27 Maret 2012
bored.
gruesome greeting Minggu ini sekolah is totally menjengkelkan. Pelajaran banyak kosong, hari-hari menjelang UAN gini justru acaranya gajelas banget di sekolah. dampaknya: GUE JADI BOSEN. Gue bosen sekolah. Gue bosen ngapa-ngapain. Sumpah, gue ngrasa penaaaaaaaaaat terus. What's wrong actually? karena gue bosen, dan mungkin agak banyak pikiran juga, gue jadi sensitif. Tiap hari brasa PMS. Buat orang-orang yang di sekeliling gue, maafkanlah karena gatau kenapa bawaanya pengen emosi terus. Dan yaa beruntunglah deh ya wanita, jadi gue bisa make PMS sebage alesan. "Lu kok marah-marah sih nis?" Sorry, PMS... biasa wanita... Hari-2 "Laah sekarang lo kenapa lagi?" Masih PMS, gue kan cewek normal Hari-3 "Yaoloh sensitif mulu ni orang, kebanyakan nonton sinetron yaa?" bukan bego, PMS deh kayaknya. Ah gini nih jadi cewek.. Hari-4 ^&*%$!%^#!*#*(marah-marah ceritanya...) "Lu sampe sekarang masih PMS?" Iye gue kan cewek, masalah buat lo? Hari-5 "Aniiiiis udah ah jangan emosi terus, masa dari kemaren kamu kaya gini, gaasik ah.." yang cewek itu gue, yang PMS juga gue, apaan sih urus-urus Hari-6 Mati aja lo nis... Bahkan Bigbang-pun tidak bisa totally menyembuhkan kebosenan gue sekarang ini. bahkan film-film Thailand yang gue download juga ga bisa ngilangin rasa bosan yang merasuk ini. Dan haha-hihi di sekolah sama anak-anak juga cuma bisa ngilangin bosen pas di sekolah doang. Kalo udah pulang? Yodah deh bosen lagi Dan yang menyebalkan lagi adalah Bagaskoro tidak mengajaku main. AAAAAAAA, please deh mas bagas, aku bosen. Kamu tau? B-O-S-A-N. Ajak gue nonton the Raid kek. Main kek. Apa kek.. Gue gakuat kalo gini lama-lama. Hari ini aja gue mencoba ngilangin kebosanan gue. Yaa sekalian cari suasana buat belajar matematika dan teman-temanya yang bikin pusing itu. Gue pergi ke Essen, kafe gaul di Gedongkuning, deket rumah. Yaaa a bit relieved sih yaa. Habis minum chocolate-pot rasanya semua pikiran ikut ngalir ke dalem perut. Recommended nih, hot chocolate-nya enak, pancake-nya apalagi. Enak banget. harganya makanan sama minumannya antara 10.000-20.000. Murah, kenyang lagi. Yumm Hasil dari essen: kenyang minum coklat sama dapet belajar matematika. Sambil nyelem nelen air! karena gue bosen dan gabisa fokus terus-terusan makan soal, gue foto-foto pake webcam. Rasanya kaya udah ga kenal sama kata norak. So what amat yang penting gue gak bosen. Yeaaaaaaay Ini nih chocolate-pot nyaaaaa :9 |
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Jumat, 16 Maret 2012
let it 'flo'
Aloha! Hola! Alohan! Ikan Lohan!
Besok udah hari ke-6 usek loh teman-teman. But, ini usek apa usek sih ya. Jujur nih, gue ga ngerasain euforia-nya blaas! (Yes I know, pelajar macam apa ini guee) By the way, so many things hapenned during this week, and past two weeks. Terutama yang terjadi sama mereka. Gue gatau sebenernya persoalannya apa kenapa mereka bisa sampe kaya gini. Kenapa mereka marahan. Kenapa gak ada yang ngalah. Kenapa mereka bikin gue sedih. Kenapa gue harus denger salah satu dari mereka nangis. Please.. Jangan kaya gini Please.. Dan juga dia. Hei, kenapa sih sama lo? Udah berapa kali gue mohon-mohon, please.. Ngertiin isi hati gue dong, please... Tapi apa? It seems like semua kata-kata yang udah gue keluarin tu cuma kayak baca sekilas trus langsung balik halaman. Sambil lalu. Kenapa sih justru pas gue mulai ujian lo jadi kaya gini? gue salah apa? Please.... Dan ga ada yang bisa jawab pertanyaan "gue salah apa" itu... Gue cuma curhat. Since people that I love so much all gone, gue cuma bisa nulis. I love all of my friends, but I'm not that kind of girl yang tanpa ditanya bisa dengan gampangnya cerita semua tentang masalah pribadi. Walopun semuanya terjadi di saat-saat rentan kaya gini, gue tetep harus bersyukur. Bersyukur. Terus bersyukur... Seenggaknya gue bukan orang yang "too much think about something" jadi let it flow, flow, and flow. Gue tetep bisa ngerjain semuanya, ulangan, aktivitas, karena gue gasuka nyampur-nyampurin aktivitas sama masalah pribadi. Yah walopun gitu gue kan tetep ngerasa butuh cerita. uuuuuuu u,u Gue lagi di flo coffee niih. Coffee-ing all day, chitato-ing all day. Even both of them are a bit incompatible with my body condition but still, I drink much of coffee and eat a lot of chitato. Since there are no one cares about me right now. Wuaaaaaaah Walopun sekarang kayaknya orang-orang yang gue sayang banget itu ngilang, tp gue tetep punya kopi. One thing that I love so much too. Ya gak? Kopito.. Kopito.... Minum kopi bikin gue tenang. Well yeah... Ah iya, kalo kemaren waktu di peacock gue sebelahan sama mas-mas gangster yang ngrokokan dan ngrokoknya itu aneh, sekarang gue di Flo malah cewek sendiri. Dikelilingi lelaki-lelaki tampang distro yang JUGA NGEROKOK. Dan mereka memenuhi ruangan di Flo ini. Gue tersudut di pojokan. Dan kalo gue duduk eh mundurnya kelewatan, gue bakal jatoh di kolam ikan. Kampret. Aduh bagaimana ini saya wanita sendiriaaaaan rawr. |
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Kamis, 16 Februari 2012
PANIC! -ADDICT
here I am, a big fan of PANIC! AT THE DISCO!
gue tiap hari masih dengerin lagu-lagu dari A fever You Can't Sweat Out loh, Pretty Odd juga, sama yang baru Vices and Virtues. Ah Brandon ah Brandon ah BRANDOON!! Apalagi ini yang tiap hari PASTI gue denger tiap pagi Panic! At the Disco - Always When the world gets too heavy Put it on my back I'll be your levy You are taking me apart Like bad glue On a get well card It was always you Falling for me Now there's always time Calling for me I'm the light blinking at the end of the road Blink back to let me know I'm a fly that's trapped In a web But I'm thinking that My spider's dead Oh, lonely, lonely little life I could kid myself Thinking that I'm fine It was always you Falling for me Now there's always time Calling for me I'm the light blinking at the end of the road Blink back to let me know That I'm skin and bone Just a cane and rusty throne Oh, the castle's under siege But the sign outside says "Leave me alone" It was always you Falling for me Now there's always time Calling for me I'm the light blinking at the end of the road Blink back to let me know (It was always you) Blink back to let me know (It was always you) Oh please, Brandon Urie.. Can you just sing that song next to me, please? Your voice is so OUTRAGEOUS! "okay, baby. here I am." |
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Senin, 30 Januari 2012
300++ days
huaaaah laa amat yak gue gak nulis beginian.. Anyway. HAPPY NEW YEAR YA! -oke, emang pantes buat ditampol, ini lusa udh februari woi!-
Begini deh hidup gue sekarang, agak ga karuan. Blog aja sampe ga keurus gini, kasian yak. Emang kaya gini ya yang namanya kelas 3? oh Ya Allah, I miss my old me, my old routines. Sekarang kerjaanya belajar capek tidur belajar lagi capek lagi. Oh shit men. Gue ga bisa datar terus-terusan begini!!! --->Ya kesimpulanya lo harus berjuang lebih keras dong nis biar semua kelar, trus lo sukses... Iya ngerti ngerti, AMIN! Gue kadang cm ngerasa sedih aja gitu, ngerasa stuck di problem yang sama: gampang ngantuk+susah belajar. Itu satu paket. Sekali belajar, slese brapa soal langsung ngantuk, dan begitu pula sebaliknya. Oh kenapa nih kenapaaaa. AAAAAA jiwaku ini kenapaaa Ya Allah aku kenapaaaaaaaaaaaa *jeritan seorang hamba Apa-apaan banget yak. Gue jadi ngerasa pathetic gini nih kelas tiga. Emang segini nya yak? Pathetic pelajaran, pathetic perasaan, pathethic pacar. Eh ya gak sih, nelangsa amat gue-__- ya yang terutama itu ya pathetic pelajaran. Oh God it's killing me adoh apaan banget nih postingan gue. The first post after 300+++++ days malah isinya galau-an gue semua. Sorry sorry deh, habis.. aku aku aku udah gabisa gitu nahan perasaan ini *lebay* Oiya, sbnernya dr kmrn gw pengen udh pengen nulis sih ya. Tapi eh tapi, ribet pengen ganti skin, nyari2 di blogskins, eh malah tambah ribet sendiri. yodah walhasil pake skin lama deh. Gak jelek jelek amat kok yaaa, kan soft gitu Anyway gue abis potong. Dan shit. kependekan. Rambut dr sepinggang jadi sepundak. What the-____________________- gini nih ya mbak mbak kapster salon, suka napsu kalo motong orang rambutnya panjang |
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Sabtu, 01 Januari 2011
HAPPY NEW YEAAAR :D
"another year has passed a year of great importance that contained moments in which we will never forget And now, On 2011 prove to yourself that your life can get better, prove that 2011 can be the the best year of your life. Do all that you want to do. Dream, cry, smile, dance, study, scream, eat, sleep, sing, celebrate, read, work, love, win, loose, party, and many more. Do whatever you have and want to do, but, do with a huge smile on your face and happiness." HAPPY NEW YEAR!! Ga krasa ya sekarang udah 2011 aja. Wow. Bener-bener ga nyangka. Sumpah. Gatau knapa 2010 kmaren krasa cepeeeet banget. Seneng banget deh. For the first time, I celebrated new year's eve with B, watched fireworks together. Yeay! Well, I just hope that 2011 will be better than 2010, achieve what I dream of, and everything about B goes well. Yeah, I really want to be happy this year. |
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Jumat, 31 Desember 2010
last piece of 2010
(I write this in my diary, and now I re-write it here. heheh :p)
Friday, December 31, 2010 Hello, how are you? Only a few hours counting down to 2011. How do you feel? So many things happened in 2010. Good things, bad things. But after all, 2010, and all the things that happened in it, are irreplaceable. I experienced so many things, got knowledge, and felt better in 2010. What about 2011? It just a few hours more, man. Well, who knows about 2011 right now? I just hope, that in 2011, I get more precious experience that can give me more knowledge of life. And I hope that I can show 100% of myself. Although so many things happened, I thought of listing down my top list moments in 2010. Well....
the end. |
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Minggu, 26 Desember 2010
100 things
1) Last beverage: aer putih
2) Last phone call: guntur bagaskoro 3) Last text message: guntur bagaskoro 4) Last song you listened to: david archuleta - parachutes & airplanes 5) Last time you cried: tadi, gara-gara kaki gue kena kucing 6) Dated someone twice: no 7) Been cheated on: iya kali, haha ga tau ding 9) Lost someone special: yes 10) Been depressed: ngapain depresi, ahaha. maybe yes maybe no deh 11) been over seas: yes LIST THREE FAVORITE COLORS: 12) light blue 13) white 14) soft pink THIS YEAR HAVE YOU: 15) Made new friends: yeaah 16) Fallen out of love: YES 17) Laughed until you cried: yes 18) Met someone who changed you: hm gak tau deh, maybe yes 19) Found out who your true friends were: well.. 20) Changed someones life? haha i have no idea 21) Kissed anyone in your top friend's list: no 22) How many people on your friends list do you know in real life: hah? radong aku 23) How many kids do you want to have: 2 or 3 24) Do you have any pets: NO! 25) Do you want to change your name: big no! 26) Best Christmas present given? ga ngerayain 27) What time did you wake up today: 10.10 28) What were you doing at midnight last night: watch 'aeonflux', texting with him, listening to iTunes 29) Name something you can't wait for? read number 2 30) Last time you saw your father: tadi pas solat isya 31) What is one thing you wish you could change about your life? nothing. I love my life just the way it are 32) What are you listening to right now: far east movement - if i was you (OMG) (feat. snoop dogg) 33) Have you ever talked to a person named Tom: Tom Cruise. Dia ngomong ke gue lewat layar kaca 34) What's getting on your nerves right now: nothing 36) What's your real name Annisa Nur Hasanah 37) Relationship Status: in relationship 38) Zodiac sign: aries 39) Male or female: female 40) Natural Hair color: black 41) eye color: dark brown 43) Need Glasses: no 44) Long or short hair: long 45) Height: who cares? 46) Do you have a crush on someone: IYOLAAH. OF COURSE! 47) What do you like about yourself: i like all about myself 48) Piercings? No 49) Tattoos: tato gambar sendiri, make hena yang awetnya seminggu 50) Right or left handed: right handed FIRSTS: 51) First surgery : belom pernah. 52) First piercing: ears 53) First tattoo: di tangan, hadiah dari permen karet 100 perak 54) First best friend: juwita perwitasari 55) First sport you joined: gatau 56) First pet: I CAN'T BE AROUND WITH ANIMALS. hiiiiii 57) First vacation: bali 59) First crush: my neighbor. jaman kelas satu smp 61) Eating: nothing 62) Wearing: kaos, kolor 63) I'm about to: sit 64) Speaking to: myself 65) Waiting for? the day where I can meet him 66) Want kids? jelaas, besok sama halal gue 67) Want to get married? iyalaaaah 68) Carreers In Mind? engineer WHICH IS BETTER WITH THE OPPOSITE SEX 69) Eyes or lips: both 70) Hugs or kisses: hugs 71) Shorter or taller: taller 72) Older or Younger: older 73) Romantic or spontaneous: both 74) Nice stomach or arms? both 75) Tattoos or piercings? ojo lah 76) Sensitive or loud: sensitive 77) Hook-up or relationship: relationship 78) Trouble maker or hesitant: jangan deh HAVE YOU EVER. 79) Kissed a stranger: naujubilah 81) Lost glasses: no 82) Sex on first date: naujubilah 83) Broken someones heart? iya kali. ahahaha 84) Had your own heart broken: yes 85) Been arrested: no 86) Turned someone down: huh? 87) Cried when someone died: yeaah. 88) Liked a friend that is a girl? yoralaaaah. edan po DO YOU BELIEVE IN: 89) Yourself: jelas 90) Miracles: iya 91) Love at first sight: yes 92) Heaven: yes 93) Santa Claus: no 94) Kissing on the first date: haha 95) God: yeah ANSWER TRUTHFULLY: 96) Is there one person you want to be with right now: yeaah, my incubus 97) Had more than one boyfriend at the same time: wadwuuuuh, naujubilah 98) Do u believe its possible to remain faithful forever: yes. 99) What's the one thing you cannot live without? well, A LOT OF THINGS! 100) Posting this as 100 truths: yup! gini nih, gue ga punya ide buat ngepost apaan. Akhirnya gue copas lagi ni dari si Aghnia Amalia *tapi jawabanya gue ganti laaah. |
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